You never learned a thing from me.


That's sort of a lie.

I think this is the only thing - I make half thoughts, wonderful beginnings and miserable fluffy ends but a piece is always missing from my mind, a small irreplaceable minute drip drop of sentence, it never fails, it never fails and I never fail to repeat myself and do you want to know this?! I want to tell you real things , real honest things that no one else could ever concoct but I can only say half of what I need to say,,,,, what does this do to my brains!? My mental situation is no good, no good at all! I need to get some sleep.



My house is clean for the first time since thanksgiving. it was a sunny day so i spent it raking leaves, weeding, and airing out laundry. it reminded me of the beach street house, the first house i lived in after moving out of my mom's. i lived with 5 other roommates and things became unbearably miserable about six months into it. my girlfriend and i moved out in the middle of the night when everyone was out of town. since then i have never stayed in one house for more than 6 months. i live alone now and i have already been subleasing here since september. i just signed my own year long lease...so what's going to happen three months from now when i am supposed to move to alaska for the entire summer?